[[ Stickman & Stickbabe ]]

we're just two simple stickpeople who :-
met,
clicked,
hitched,
till death do us part...


[[ All I want in 2007... ]]

Seeing loved ones happy
Mission trips
Have a cute baby
Learn bridal makeup
Speak Camb/Viet
Pay off our housing loan!


[[ Leaving? ]]

~C-Cup : cupcakes from heaven... (perfect 4 parties)
~My Bali Photo Blog
~Melonbabe (my female sibling)
~Angelia (a kid i tutored, who grew up!)
~WZB (a woman with an expensive rock)
~Get Blobbed... (splish splash plop blobbe)
~My Primary School Classmate
~My pescatarian recipe blog
~Simplicity - making a difference in Kenya
~A visually delightful blog of a stranger
~Another visual treat...
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Saturday, May 27, 2006
Two days ago, I discovered I was bleeding. Friends and Stickman rushed me to a woman's clinic, where I await my turn in the midst of men and their pregnant wives in all shapes and sizes. I guess I was the only special case. I think I already knew that the baby was lost, but of course, being the first time, you'd never know what to expect. There was a flurry of activity around me. "Lie down" "Drink hot water" "I'll inform school for you tomorrow" ... then the gynae saw me, and he did a blood test but didn't really confirm what really happened.

The next day, I knew it was gone as the bleeding was heavy and painful. I was on bed most of the day. I couldn't answer calls and I am thankful for those who've been very concerned. I think I smsed enough people for them to tell each other. If I had to say "Miscarriage" to everyone who smsed and called, I may have developed some emotional problem by now. The clinic called to arrange another appointment. For a moment, we were both worried about it being ectopic. I tried to tell the nurse I already knew it was gone, so perhaps there was no need to go down, but she was a bit slow and I gave up trying.

At 630pm, the doctor saw us and confirmed what I knew and also explained the likely process. I think it was worth going to just get some questions answered - it really made me realise a child is so precious and difficult to form - which I probably would not have appreciated so much if I didn't have a miscarriage or perhaps it was two. I mean, you usually skip the sections on Anomalies and Miscarriages when you read pregnancy books. Well, unless something happened of course. Stickman must have been very bored and it was no fun going home to bed again. So I agreed to watch X-men after the consultation, which was pretty okay, except for my painful contractions.

I stayed at home again today. We informed our parents today and they responded quite immediately, loading us with chicken essence and bird's nest. My Stick nephews came too, which was a treat for me as I've not seen them for a while. I think my sis-in-law is really a model mum for me. I've been reflecting on my schedule too. Perhaps I've stretched myself out pretty thin and there're some things that I've to give up for motherhood. I can't load every waking hour with stuff to do. I'm really re-thinking my career too.

Anyway, I hope to never forget this when I've a child and am angry at him/her. I used to think of motherhood as a big sacrifice till I realise how intricate and wonderful each conception is, and I see God in all of this. So embryo, you better behave and form properly the next time!
http://www.visembryo.com/baby/


stickbabe [ 11:23 PM ]